It’s been a very long time since my last post, and as I write to you this morning I hope all of you are well and thriving. Right now it’s 4am. I woke up early again this morning, and after my long absence from any attempts at writing, I felt inspired to reach out to others instead of hiding within my own little world of periodic uncertainty.
It’s true, all of us are faced with choices to make upon our every waking moment each day of our lives. One of my greatest, and most ardent choices which comes my way the moment I open my eyes in the morning is my choice to live in fear, or to live in love? The answer to that question is obvious, but judging from my past experiences, and you may agree, depending on your own experiences, this is not so easily done.
On a collective viewpoint, I chose love hands down, but lately I’ve found that I’m having episodes of emerging/internal anger, and depression which at times is very scary. I don’t know where it comes from, but low and behold, it comes at times when certain vasanas are triggered. These triggers come from the same people who have always pushed my buttons, or from the same life circumstances, but now these episodes of anger are getting more intense, and I don’t know why. Thank god, I’m alone when this anger comes up, but it’s so intense, I’d say it’s almost like rage. My being an Empath doesn’t help either.
I’ve read some very intense energies are coming to the planet these days. Much more intense than before, and it will appear as if our personal lives, and the world are falling down around us. Big changes may have already occurred in your lives. They sure have in mine, and quite frankly it’s hard to deal with, but in spite of any turmoil which might arise in our lives we go on don’t we. There are days when I feel I can’t, but something inside me pushes me forward no matter what. Survival instincts do you suppose?
I wanted to check with you, those who read this blog, maybe to reassure myself I’m not the only one who feel crazy these days, but also to let you know, you’re not the only one either, and if there is any feedback on these anger issues would you please tell me? I would really appreciate it. I have a feeling our loving universe is throwing our most intense issues in our faces for a very good reason, but hey, do we get a break now and then or not?
Be well. May you bask in internal peace, and love,